In the morning

In the morning, I need at least one full hour to clear the cobwebs. This is when I get my everyday silence and solitude. I want no other human around me. Selfish? Nah, I think more along the lines of another S word....Smart. I know me in the morning, Im a grump! I awaken at 5:30 so that I can be at work at 8:00. I guess I should be grateful that I dont start work at 6:00! I must say that it hasnt always been that way. In a former life, far...far away...I could sleep until noon. Today, Im trying desperately to wake up. There is activity all around me. As in the last post, all the little creatures of the woods are active and very vocal. My cat is laying between the keyboard and the monitor, the dog, at my feet, Jenny ( my stepdaughter) wanted me to get her up earlier than normal because she has a track meet at school today that she is very excited about, and wanted additional time to get ready. I am annoyed...because I didnt get what I wanted this morning....poor me!!! I have been trying to pay attention to how I am feeling and how I am reacting to everyday life issues. I have been a state of total grumpiness for the last 2 weeks or so. I think Ive reached my threshold of pain tolerance. I dont take pain killers, so Ive been relying on myself, pretty much, to try and deal. Joanne, my spiritual mentor asked the question....."so Jane, where is God in all of this"....dang, I knew she was going to ask me that!!! Heres the honest answer, I didnt invite Him....How disturbing....He is the One and only thing that can help me deal, my Maker, my Creator, my everything....how dare I, leave him out? Today, I will be intentional about letting God into my presence....because I am always in His presence, and he wants me to want him.