I can only imagine

I can only imagine…
what life is like
to fully know the love of Jesus
to fully know the love
of anyone…for that matter
I don’t….dwell on the past
I’ve taken issue with my stuff
at least as much as I could…at the time
some of it resurfaces
like an onion…I have to peel back layers
I don’t worry about tomorrow
At least….Im not consumed by it…but
my days…drag on endlessly..
one into the other…
nothing special…nothing grand…
just another day
I want to “seize the day” carpe dium
I want to recognize all the good in the day
I want to be thankful for everything..
Especially that I am Gods chosen daughter
But….I don’t
My walking around on earth life….
Is hard
Not as hard as some..but hard…none the less
I….am a failure at this thing called love
but I want it so badly…I can only imagine